I got freaked out. "What am I going to do?!!" She looked at me and laughed, thinking that it was funny to try to put ME out there.
When we got there I freaked even worse, "Oh my GOTH!! ARE YOU REALLY WANTING ME DEAD THAT BAD?!" "No, I just want you to play a sport." I sighed and grabed a vollyball.. yeah.. I KNOW. Anyways I tried to hit it to another girl. I was doing OK.., I guess. Then she made us play against the other girls who have been doing it for years... A.K.A my sister and her friends.
At first I thought I was really going to suck. But I was surprisingly GOOD! MORE LIKE AWESOME!! I kept hitting it and spiking it.. (i think that's how you say it) And then I like surved it really good.
I was proud. I'm finally good @ something. And I'm gonna stick to it. =]
- Current Mood: happy
I know you will keep going just out of spite.
Here in this place its dark
Sooner or later the devil will leave its mark
Then you would wished you didn't go.
I sit there and laugh, "I told you so."
In the dark you begin to weep
Then you hear something that will creep.
As you see your own fate
You feel like the evil won't truley wait.
I can answer all of these. All of them would only be 1 answer.... "yes"
Dissappointed in your life
Sitting there with yourself and a knife
In the darkness your alone
knowone could hear a single moan
that something you wanted will never show
you feel the blood comeout and flow
sick of feeling like it would come back
as your life becomes out of wack
hating this pain
it seems like you can gain
life, love, no sorrow
But then again there is always a tommorrow
you feel like it will never go away
your waiting every single day
- Current Mood: blah
- Current Music:marlyin mansion
- Current Mood: calm
Every day i live through the damage i did. the stuff i tried to do but ended up wrong. i live through all the lies, all the pain, all the people telling me IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH! just shutup. im tired of the screaming inside of my head, the little girl inside of me telling me to just end it all make it go away. BUT I CANT! i..never can.
I just want all my "so called" friends to know that i don't need you. I don't want you. you don't want me either, you never did. no one ever did. so you know what.. LEAVE ME ALONE NOW! IM NOT YUOR MOM! IM NOT YOUR PERSON TO LEAN ON AND IM NOT GOING TO PAMPER UR A$$#$ ANY MORE!! ok?! good
- Current Location:home
- Current Mood: angry
- Current Music:AFI
So anyways.. My sister was on the computer... I wanted to get on VampireFreaks... ya tht didnt happen.. she was being a b!%*h. ya i no.. like always. Then I went to take a morning shower. When I did I got out to shave my legs lol.. BUT IT ENDED UP I CUT MYSELF ALL OVER MY LEGS! it was gushing out like crazy. I thought, "can it get any worse?" Then i thought oh well and whiped it up with my finger and licked it.
Ah do i love the taste of iron in my blood. (lol)
I'm a mimic and very low on iron so ya.. i love the taste of it. after that i went into my room got my shirt and stuff on.. then my cat just went crazy and scratch my on my arms!! wow.. i ended up bleeding all over the carpet. "great.. OH NO NOT THE CARPET!!" i freaked out..
WHAT ARE MY PARENTS GOING TO SAY WHEN THEY COME BAK??!!!
- Current Mood: mad
- Current Music:AFI - Bleed Black
Like always there was one nite I really didn't want to go to sleep. I eventually did though. When I did I dreamed that I was in my room and this ghost came out and was staring at me. For like no reason. Then I woke up. When I did I had cold sweat. (not normal even for me) and then I saw it. The ghost was rite infront of my face. In my head I said, "Oh god just go away." Then it did. I freaked out so bad. I was like," DUDE THERE WAS A GHOST INFRONT OF MY FACE!! DUDE!" I then went back to sleep. In the morning I realized it wasn't the first time I saw it. I thought,"I saw in when I WAS 4! Certianly this isnt what I saw when I was 4." Then I went into an old little dirary of mine. When I did I saw where I wrote what it looked like and what it was. I freaked. So naturally I was scared but excited that it was the same one and not a different one. I was like, "Wow I saw it again. I can't believe it."
- Current Location:in house
- Current Mood: amused
- Current Music:Marylon Mansion